Question 5
SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE, EVERYTHING I HAVE WISHED FOR HAS HAPPENED TO ME. NOW I HAVE ALL I COULD POSSIBLY WANT, AND I FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS BREAKING. WHAT IS HAPPENING?
You have misunderstood. The heart is breaking out of joy; the heart is breaking out of delight, sheer delight. In a certain moment joy becomes unbearable. When joy is unbearable, then you are really joyful. Then joy is at the pinnacle, then joy is at the hundred degree point. If you can bear this much joy, sooner or later you will start evaporating through this joy: you will start disappearing into the divine. Don't be afraid. Nothing wrong is happening to you. You are blessed.
But it happens. Our ideas...
If you see somebody crying, you think that the person is sad, he must be in misery. You start consoling. Have you heard the expression 'tears of joy'? There are tears of joy too. So don't be in a hurry to console -- maybe he is just being joyful. But we only know of people crying when they are unhappy. We don't know about people crying when they are happy because people are not happy at all. So 'tears of joy' are only in poems found in poems, not in the eyes.
But tears have nothing to do with sadness. It is an ugly state of humanity, a sad state of affairs, that men cry and weep only when they are sad, miserable. Tears have nothing to do with misery as such, tears come only when something is overflowing. It may be sadness, it may be joy, it may be love, it may be anger. You can watch women. When they become too angry they start crying. It is anger, not sadness. Watch a small child: if he laughs too much, he starts crying. It is too much, unbearable -- he starts overflowing into tears. Tears are just an indication that the cup is overfull -- they start overflowing.
You say: SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE EVERYTHING I HAVE WISHED FOR HAS HAPPENED TO ME... That's why the joy is becoming unbearable -- you are coming closer to home. NOW I HAVE ALL I COULD POSSIBLY WANT, AND I FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS BREAKING. WHAT IS HAPPENING?
The question is from Anand Pratima.
Something tremendously beautiful is happening. Don't try to analyse it and don't try to think about it. Don't try to interpret it, otherwise the mind can destroy the whole thing.
Next: Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 6
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Chapter 6
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 1
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 1, WHAT HAPPENS TO MY VOICE WHEN YOU SPEAK TO ME? WHAT IS THE GAME? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 2
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 2, WHILE IN AN ART MUSEUM IN FRANKFURT RECENTLY, I ENTERED ONE ROOM WITH NOTHING BUT STATUES AND CARVINGS OF BUDDHA. I PUT ABSOLUTELY NO FAITH IN STONE IDOLS, BUT I WAS SURPRISED TO FEEL A VERY STRONG ENERGY CURRENT IN THE ROOM, SIMILAR TO WHAT I FEEL HERE IN THE LECTURE. WAS I IMAGINING THINGS? AND IF SO, HOW CAN I TRUST WHAT I FEEL HERE WITH YOU? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 3
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 3, WHAT DO YOU HAVE THAT I HAVEN'T GOT? (AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE ASHRAM AND CAR AND SECRETARY AND ALL THAT STUFF.) at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 4
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 4, WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHEN YOU SAY THAT MAN IS A MACHINE? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 5
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 5, SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE, EVERYTHING I HAVE WISHED FOR HAS HAPPENED TO ME. NOW I HAVE ALL I COULD POSSIBLY WANT, AND I FEEL LIKE MY HEART IS BREAKING. WHAT IS HAPPENING? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 6
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 6, WHY AM I ALWAYS AFRAID OF OTHERS' OPINION? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 7
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 7, IT HAS BEEN SAID THAT THE ENGLISH MADE THE BEST SERVANTS IN THE WORLD. WHEN YOU GAVE ME MY NAME YOU TRANSLATED IT AS 'IN SERVICE OF LOVE'. I KNOW NOW THAT IT CAN ALSO BE TRANSLATED AS 'THE SERVANT OF LOVE'. I HAVE WONDERED ABOUT THIS. SOMETIMES IT SEEMS THAT I AM MOST IN SERVICE OF LOVE WHEN I AM MOST MYSELF AND NOT INTENDING TO SERVE. OTHERWISE IT SEEMS MORE LIKE SUBSERVIENCE AND THAT I AM SUFFERING FROM THE ENGLISH CULTURAL DISEASE OF POLITENESS, SERVILITY AND HELPFULNESS. WILL YOU PLEASE COMMENT? at energyenhancement.org
- Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 8
Tantra, Talks on the Royal Song of Saraha, The Tantra Vision, Vol. 2 Chapter 6: I am enough alone, Question 8, CAN PRAYER BE SOMETIMES HARMFUL? at energyenhancement.org