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VOL. 2, SUFIS: THE PERFECT MASTER
Be Rejoiced in Me
The sixth question:
OSHO, IN ME I FEEL THE NEED FOR A MASTER AND I FEEL THAT THE THINGS THAT YOU LET YOUR DISCIPLES DO ARE ALSO GOOD FOR ME. WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL THAT I SHOULD TAKE YOU AS A MASTER, THAT I SHOULD SURRENDER TO YOU?
RUINEMANS, FIRST THING: THIS IS YOUR PROBLEM, that you need a Master. I don't need a disciple. I already have enough. I am not interested. So I am not persuading you to become a disciple. In fact, I make ALL sorts of arrangements to dissuade people so that they can escape.
It is not easy to come close to me. I have made all kinds of barriers between you and me. I am not interested in disciples -- unless somebody's need is really intense. I am here, not for the crowd and the mob, but only for the chosen few.
You say: IN ME I FEEL THE NEED FOR A MASTER AND I FEEL THAT THE THINGS THAT YOU LET YOUR DISCIPLES DO ARE ALSO GOOD FOR ME.
If you feel the need for a Master, search for a Master. Hopefully some day you may find one.
You ask: WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL THAT I SHOULD TAKE YOU AS A MASTER?
I am not special at all. You forget about me. I am a very ordinary person. If you are interested in special Masters, you will have to search somewhere else. The very idea of being special is an egoistic idea. And, yes, I know: disciples like to become attached to very special people. That is a vicarious way of fulfilling their own ego, that "I am a disciple of a very special Master."
So let me make it clear from the very beginning: I am a very ordinary man. You need not be interested in me at all. I am not special. You will have to search somewhere else. The very idea of finding a special Master is an egoistic idea. Why special? What is special in life? Either all is special or nothing is special.
I can agree with both statements: either all is special or nothing is special. But I cannot agree with the statement that somebody is special and others are not special. God exists everywhere, in everybody. And God is our nature.
I am an ordinary man. So if you want to have a special Master, you are in wrong company here; you will have to find somewhere else. You will have to look for some magician. You are not really interested in disciple hood. Your interest is in a kind of ego trip.
You ask: WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL THAT I SHOULD TAKE YOU AS A MASTER, THAT I SHOULD SURRENDER TO YOU?
I am not interested in your surrender at all. And when a disciple surrenders to the Master, he does not surrender to the Master -- the Master is just an excuse. The disciple only surrenders. Because he cannot surrender without a Master, hence the Master is an excuse.
The Master does not take your surrender! It is one-way traffic. When you surrender to me, you surrender -- that's all. I don't take your surrender; I don't go on gathering your surrenders. I am just an excuse, just to help you get rid of a foolish ego, an illusory ego.
How can the surrender be of any significance to the Master? because the ego is false, so is the surrender. If ego itself is false, what value can your surrender have?
Just think of a man who believes that he is Napoleon. And he is not! And he thinks that he has a great kingdom. And then a Master persuades him to surrender his kingdom -- and he surrenders! And he says, "Okay, I surrender my kingdom and from now onwards I will not be Napoleon." Do you think the Master is getting something?
In the first place the man had nothing but just an idea. The Master is not getting anything; of course, the man is losing much: his kingdom, his being a Napoleon, etcetera.
You say: WHAT MAKES YOU SO SPECIAL THAT I SHOULD TAKE YOU AS A MASTER?
I am not special, so you need not worry about me. I am very ordinary. And if you can surrender to somebody who is absolutely ordinary, your surrender will have some meaning. To surrender to somebody special is not surrender. Again you are enjoying that you have become identified with a great Master. You are also somehow great -- the reflected glory of the Master.
I am a nobody! If you join hands with me, you will become a nobody -- that's all I can promise to you. I am a nothingness -- if you join hands with me you will become a nothingness. I have disappeared. If you come close to me, beware... you will have to disappear. To be intimate with me is to be intimate with your ultimate death.
That's what real surrender is: dying as an ego. But when you die as an ego, you are born as divine. So the crucifixion of the ego is the resurrection of the soul.
And I am not interested in your surrender because I don't see that you have anything. You don't have anything -- you have only fallacies, illusions, dreams. But you are asking, Ruinemans, as if you are going to surrender something great, so you have to make everything sure: "Whether this man is somebody special so that I should surrender my kingdom. Who is this man? Why should I surrender to him?"
Surrender is not to anybody in particular -- surrender is simply surrender! It only means that "I am tired, wearied, burdened with my ego. I have lived with it and it has tortured me enough. Enough is enough! I want to get rid of it, but how to get rid of it? Where to put it?"
One has lived with it so long that it is very difficult to separate oneself from it. The Master becomes a help. He says, "Okay, give it to me. If you cannot put it anywhere, give it to me and I will take care of it, I will preserve it."
Feeling trust, love, you can give your ego to the Master. But what are you giving? There is nothing in fact.
Two madmen were talking to each other. One man had his fist closed and asked the other, "Can you tell me what I have in my fist?"
The other brooded, meditated, and said, "A white elephant."
The first looked into his fist and said, "Then you must have looked -- while I was closing my fist you must have looked. Otherwise, how did you come to know?"
In your fists there is nothing, no white elephant -- just empty ideas, empty identities about who you are. A Master is nothing but a situation. So if you really feel you need, then search.
And these discourses must be of great help to you, because this is the series about the Perfect Master. You will need a Perfect Master -- and I am not a Perfect Master. I am a very very imperfect Master. You need something so special that you will not find it.
That's why people believe in dead Masters, because with the dead Masters they can create as much speciality as they want. I cannot walk on water, that is true. Jesus can walk -- and I know perfectly well he never walked: he knew the right rocks! But you can believe he is special, he walks on water.
People believe in dead Masters because with dead Masters they are free to have all kinds of imagination.
I am a very ordinary man, as ordinary as you are. But I am celebrating myself. I celebrate myself, I sing myself. And I can remind you that you can also celebrate yourself, and you can also sing yourself. And if an ordinary man like me can celebrate, that should give you a great joy -- because you can also celebrate -- you need not be special. You can ALSO be enlightened without walking on water.
If you understand, you will be rejoiced in me -- because a man just like you has become a celebration. It is a great promise: you can also become one. Nothing special is needed. All that is needed is already with you. You just have to be reminded.
A True Master is nothing but a reminding.