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Baul Mystics

VOL. 2, THE BELOVED

Chapter-10

Love Is Death

Sixth Question

 

 

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The sixth question:

Question 6

AFTER HEARING YOU FOR THE LAST NINE DAYS AND UNDERGOING MORNING AND EVENING MEDITATIONS IN YOUR ASHRAM, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I ENVY VIVEK, BUT I AM NOT JEALOUS OF HER. I FEEL SHE IS HOLDING THE'PARAMPADA' OF BELOVED DISCIPLE IN THE ASHRAM. HOW TO REACH THAT STAGE?

MIND functions in such strange ways. You have been here to meditate; it has nothing to do with anybody else. In fact, a real meditator will not look at what is happening to others. A real meditator will be going inwards.

It is said about Bayazid that he lived with his Master for twelve years, and he passed the same hall every day to come to the Master. One day the Master said to Bayazid, "You go back to the hall. There, in the cupboard, one book is Lying -- you bring that book." Bayazid said, "I will go, because I have never seen that there is a cupboard." The Master said, "You have been coming to see me continuously, every day, for twelve years, and you have to pass that hall every day; you have not looked around?" He said, "I was coming to you, Master. I am not here to look at what is in the hall, whether there is a cupboard or not, and whether there is a book in it or not. I am not here for that. My whole intent, my whole being is just for you. I am open towards you. I will go and see." The Master said, "There is no need; the book is not needed. In fact, there is no book and there is no cupboard. It was just a test to see whether you are distracted. I am happy that you are not distracted."

Now, this question is a question of distraction. How are you related to anybody? You should be meditating, or, at the most, you should be open towards me. But mind goes on creating new complexities and troubles.

The question is from a woman, so that shows something about the feminine mind also. She is more interested in Vivek than in me. If you are to feel envious, feel envious of me! But a woman is a woman; even if she has come to meditate, it makes not much difference. And then she says, "I am not jealous of her, but I envy." This is always happening in the mind: if somebody is envious we call him jealous; if we are jealous we say this is just envy. There is a double-bind.

What is envy? It is nothing but passive jealousy. Maybe jealousy is too strong a phenomenon; envy is a little passive. The difference may be of degrees, but it is not of quality, it is only of quantity. Envy can become jealousy at any moment; envy is just jealousy in progress. Mind has to drop all envies and jealousies.

She has asked, "How to reach that stage?" The first thing is to drop envy and jealousy, otherwise there is no possibility -- because love cannot exist where envy and jealousies exist. Then your search is only for a certain type of power: that in the name of love you are just trying to fulfill the ego. And it is arduous to drop, because love exists only when all the negative elements of the mind are dropped. It is very arduous. You can ask Vivek how arduous it is.

Just a few days ago she was saying to me, "You are worse than Gurdjieff!" Now that is a great compliment. Gurdjieff was really very hard on his disciples, and she says, "You are worse than Gurdjieff!" But I can understand: I am hard, I HAVE to be hard. The closer you come to me, the harder you will find me. When you come just as a visitor, then it is okay; I am not hard. I have to be very, very polite when you come as a visitor -- that is the trap. Once you are trapped, then I become hard.

The woman has not taken sannyas yet; she should take sannyas and see.

Come closer to me... you will be coming closer to your own death. Love is death. You will have to die; only then can you comeclose to me. You will have to efface yourself utterly; only then can you come close to me.

But people think that love is the promise of a rose garden. Yes, ultimately yes, but on the way it is a lot of hell.

Let me tell you one anecdote:

A great philosopher, feeling the absolute meaninglessness of life, decided to commit suicide by hanging himself. A friend came into the room and discovered him standing with a rope around his waist, and he enquired what he was trying to do. The philosopher told him he was taking his own life. "But," said the friend, "why have you the rope round your waist?"

"Well," said the philosopher, "when I tied it round my neck, it was choking me."

Love is a rope round the neck -- it will choke you, it will kill you. Only those who are courageous enough to commit suicide -- a spiritual suicide -- who are ready to die, only they can be reborn, and only they can be close to me. It has nothing to do with me. I am there, available to everybody. My invitation is there for you to come. It depends on you. But if you come just to become close to me, envious of others who are close, you are coming close for wrong reasons. Then your rope will be just around your waist, and you will say, "I cannot put it on my neck, it is choking."

People can come close also for wrong reasons, for political reasons. Now this woman has a political mind: she thinks Vivek is in a PARAMPADA, in the highest power position. This is a search for power.

Those who are close to me are close because they have effaced themselves. At least they are sincerely trying. It is hard, it is difficult, but they are trying.

I was reading a small anecdote:

There was a small camp of little boy scouts. The camp counsellor was explaining the rules of a new game: "If your enemy calls your number from his side of the battlefield," he said, "you must be a dead man, immediately. Drop just where you are. Lie still as if you are dead, become completely dead."

Ten minutes later came an agonized whisper from the youngest camper, "Please may I move now? I am a dead man, but I am on an ant hill."

You can pretend that you are effacing yourself, you can pretend that you are humble, you can pretend that you are ready to drop your ego, but pretensions won't help. Sooner or later truth comes out. And one should not become interested for wrong reasons.

The girl was rich and the young man, Mulla Nasrudin, was very poor. She liked him but that was all, and Nasrudin knew it. One night he had been a little more tender than usual:

"You are very rich," he ventured.

"Yes," she replied frankly. "I am worth one million rupees."

"And I am poor."

"Yes."

"Will you marry me?"

"No."

"I thought you would not."

"Then why did you ask me, Nasrudin?"

"Aw," said Nasrudin, "just to see how a man feels when he loses one million rupees."

Don't ask such questions, because they come out of wrong desires. First watch from where they are coming and be very, very alert. See as clearly as possible. Don't hide behind words. Don't call your jealousy envy. Be very hard with yourself. Only then will your diagnosis be helpful, and right questions will arise. If you ask a wrong question, you waste time.

 

Next: Chapter 10, Love Is Death, Seventh Question

 

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Chapter 10

 

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 1
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 1, THERE IS NO MORE SEARCHING AND SEEKING. THAT HAS ALL STOPPED. I HAVE FOUND NOTHING IN PARTICULAR, BUT I FEEL FREE, FREED. I GO ABOUT MY BUSINESS WITHOUT ANXIETY. THIS FOR ME IS BLISS, AND I FEEL SUCH A FLOOD OF GRATITUDE FOR YOUR PRESENCE HERE. GIRISHA at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 2
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 2, IF YOU HAPPENED TO MEET A BAUL, A TANTRICA, AND A YOGI, WITH WHOM WOULD YOU LIKE TO TAKE A CUP OF TEA? at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 3
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 3, WHEN ONE BECOMES EMPTY OF ALL THOUGHTS, EMPTY OF ALL PLANNINGS, EMPTY OF ALL DESIRES, WHAT TRANSFORMATION WILL HAPPEN IN ONE'S OUTER LIFE AND ONE'S INNER LIFE? HOW WILL HE BEHAVE? HOW WILL HE SEE THINGS? HOW WILL HE LIVE IN THE WORLD? PLEASE SAY at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 4
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 4, THERE IS NO MORE SEARCHING AND SEEKING. THAT HAS ALL STOPPED. I HAVE FOUND NOTHING IN PARTICULAR, BUT I FEEL FREE, FREED. ANYTHING I SEE HAPPENING IN MYSELF IS FALSE, ILLUSORY, AND A MIND TRIP, RIGHT? AND MY RECOGNITION OF THE MIND TRIP IS A MIND TRIP TOO? at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 5
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 5, ON THE ONE HAND YOU ARE GIVING ULTIMATE FREEDOM TO DO WHATSOEVER WE WANT TO DO, AND ON THE OTHER HAND YOU ARE GIVING RESPONSIBILITY. WITH RESPONSIBILITY, I CANNOT USE THE WORD 'FREEDOM' AS I WANT, HENCE I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THE RIGHT MEANING OF FREEDOM. THE MOMENT I GET IT, I GET IT WITH RESPONSIBILITY. OSHO, WHEN I UNDERSTAND I FEEL'THANK YOU'. OTHERWISE, I WOULD LIKE TO USE, AND I HAVE ALREADY USED IT AS A LICENCE at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 6
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 6, AFTER HEARING YOU FOR THE LAST NINE DAYS AND UNDERGOING MORNING AND EVENING MEDITATIONS IN YOUR ASHRAM, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I ENVY VIVEK, BUT I AM NOT JEALOUS OF HER. I FEEL SHE IS HOLDING THE'PARAMPADA' OF BELOVED DISCIPLE IN THE ASHRAM. HOW TO REACH THAT STAGE? at energyenhancement.org

  • Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 7
    The word 'Baul' comes from the Sanskrit root VATUL. It means: mad, affected by wind. The Baul belongs to no religion. Dance is his religion; singing is his worship. God is his only abode, and the whole sky is his shelter. Baul Mystics, Vol. 2 The Beloved Chapter 10: Love Is Death, Question 7, WHO IS A BAUL? PLEASE TELL US THE DEFINITION at energyenhancement.org

 

 

 
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