MY BROTHER:

You have no particular glamor, for you live in a perfect sea of glamor. Hence the difficulty of your problem, for had you (for instance) one major glamor, as has D. E. I, it would be (for one of your devotion and mental capacity) a relatively easy thing to break down, and so walk in the light. But you have surrounded yourself with a myriad glamors of no great importance but, in their aggregate, they tend to make you walk continuously in a fog. You have the capacity to walk constantly in the light. Your glamors come to you from two sources. Your reactions to all life's happenings and to your environment are those of a superficial fluidity; it is not basic or fundamental, for your life purpose is undeflectable (is there such a word, my brother?) and your life tendency is firmly and unchangeably oriented. But in dealing with circumstance and people, you are preoccupied with the effect this may have upon you and with your failure to handle them as should a disciple. Your inferiority complex keeps you in a state of glamor and is purely a personality reaction. As a soul, you are strong in knowledge; as a soul, you love all beings; as a soul, there are no circumstances which you cannot handle; as a soul, you can dominate dynamically your environment. But the glamor of inferiority (which is the result of numerous little glamors) controls your life expression on the physical plane, plus the second glamor of physical disability. Upon that, I will not enlarge beyond pointing out that preoccupation with the work you could do for us, carried down from the mental level of awareness (where you always truly live in spite of many excursions on to the astral plane!) to the physical plane would release you physically.